my thoughts, the real world, applicable?

As i was in Aikido class today, my teacher was talking about the things we learn and how we sometimes do not use much of our head to understand it. Yes no deny we humans tend to be spoon feed a lot and sometimes or should i say always too lazy to start thinking bout things or how things work or the reason behind why things are that way. We take things for granted and how it is because it is just the way it is. No question asked.

I also thought to myself at that moment. I use to do intensive training when I just started, still do actually. I train 4 times a week and when I just started it really took a lot of my strength and often I felt as though my back was going to fall apart. I would come back each day with muscles and bones aching and also getting injured. Adding up with my "excellent" sleeping habits in the early...real early mornings. It's just not good for my body at all.

Back to what I wanted to say, I felt that training this much is only making me memorize things or should I say I'm emphasizing on muscle memory more then depending or training my reflexes. I use to want to be good, to be recognize or at least be somewhere good enough to achieve something, thus practicing a lot at the start really made me seem some improvement in myself, I obviously felt happy with what I learnt and all. The longer I practised, I soon realize that I'm no longer improving or I don't see myself improving. Tony Smibert once said in his seminar that in Aikido, you would see yourself improving and then not moving and then improving again. This pretty much related to a human learning curve if you ask me.

Tony Smibert Sensei is 6th Dan. Vice-President of Australia Aiki-kai and the Vice-Chairman of the International Aikido Federation

Sometimes I felt less motivated when I don't learn anything, classes don't seem interesting and boring at times but I still went on. Knowing that this feeling of unwillingness and not motivated will eventually go off. I guess this very much apply in life too, sometimes when we are given a job or something to do which is not at our interest at all, it seems like it takes a lifetime to complete that task. If we actually stick to it and finish it, sometimes things wouldn't be that bad.

Thing that we do in life don't always get better and eventually when things stop getting better we shouldn't give up or lose out motivation. Carry on and maybe things would get better, and if gets worst..I would say not to give up, sure talking is cheap but there's no other choice right? Moving forward and constantly moving forward is something not everyone is capable of doing. It's is normal to stop a while and rest but many would see it as being left behind the pack. I've live most of my life doing things alone and I don't agree that one always needs a pack to migrate, sure it's a bonus to have a partner but sometimes it's a test from God or whoever is up there to let us see and realize the challenge in life.